Monday, August 8, 2011
I need a boys opinion!!!??? girls you can help too tho?
ok so i have an extreme history with this guy. here's the story: the pathetic part is i started liking him in 1st grade, i even remember our 1st convo and what it was about :-) but we bonded over boy-girl "cooties" all thru till 4th grade and harry potter (we are both really obsessed with it and have seen 2 of the movies together that have come out) he was always so sweet to me when we were younger and always told me he liked me it was a very cute little crush. he was also one of the nerdie boys he was kinda chubby but i didnt care whether my friends thot he was weird i liked him sooo much all the way thru the end of 5th grade when we werent in the same class and didnt see each very often and we drifted a little. and then 6th grade came... i hadnt seen him all summer but on the first day of school i was late and we had assigned seats the only seat that was left was clearly mine: i was in the back just the 2 of us right next to each other. AND MAN HE HAD GONE THRU PUBERTY AND AHHH SOOOOOO BEAUTIFUL!!! he was tall, buff, and sounded like frickin darth vador!!! 4 me it was just icing on the cake :-))) we picked up where we had left off except he was a little more awkward less cute and more flirty. we became closer than ever we were best friends and he would always ask me 4 advice on girls he liked but all his friends told me that he was doing it to make me jealous. life was great except that every1 who had thot he was a loser b4 was now his bff and all the girls were in love with him. one girl in particular was the hottest girl in the class, all the guys thot she was ugly but her body was big x10 in all the right places. the girls didnt pay her much attention tho she was kinda annoyin but she entered the group of girls i hung out with we instantly hit it off she was awesome we became really good friends but i never told her i liked "the guy" because all she was talking was how absolutely in love with him she was and that she felt bad cuz it wasnt my fault that he liked me and that she would try ad get him. i left it alone but i kept my distance. 2 weeks later we were textin one day and he asked me who i liked. i texted back sayin you tell me who you like first. he texted back my name <3 <3 <3 <3 i told him i liked him back and we became bf and gf. g#1 found out instantly, we said we werent gonna tell any1 but i guess he was tryin to be cool with his friends havin a gf and all. g#1 declared her hatred and distruct in me and made him feel horrible cuz he knew she liked him and that it was unfair. he felt horrible he started tryin to make and effert to be friends so she'd feel better. i could tell he hated this that he hated that so many people were pressuring him about this and so i broke it off. we didnt talk 4 all of winter break and 2 weeks b4 that. we slowly became friends again but i wanted him back cuz over all that time i had realized that i loved him that he was my first love. also durin this time g#1 had made a new friend g#2 they both really liked him i noticed it subtly at first but they had soon in time gotten a reputation as super boy crazy (especially g#1) and they followed him around like God . at least he and i had become best friends again but it always hurt cuz i loved him but knew that 4 now it couldnt happen. the only thing that bothered me about these girls doin this was how he never told them to leave him alone, he flirted back and he liked their attention. i was heart broken. we were still best friends and still had cute moments, 4 times he had told me he wanted me back, but each time i dodged the question. it wasnt long b4 his mom found out how his grades were droppin and had worse behavior cuz he allowd these girls to hang with him and so she sent him an all boys school. i tried to get over it, i didnt see him all summer we talked sometimes but it was awkward i was tryin so hard to get over it but it was difficult. it was now 7th grade and durin the first week i got a text from him sayin: i never wanted a girl friend im no pat (guy who he hated and resented) i replied sayin: and im no "g#1"... good luck at (name of new school). a month later was the 1st school dance, his school wasnt invited to it but his friends brought him, when i saw him i ignored him but he hugged me and i surrendered. we slow danced and said goodbye. another month later was the school play (also opening night of HP 7) and i was a lead he came and afterwords we went and saw HP 7. we saw each other alot after that, we never texted but we hung out but he was different his new school has changed him he doesnt care anymore hes not his old happy self it kills me 2 watch. so now 7th is almost over and i havent talked/seen him in 2 months. hes all i think about its all longing tho. in general we r a class couple that every1 wants 2 see 2gether. but it feels like everything he says is BS. so, what should i do? how do i get him 2 to understand hes hurtin me?
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