Confused anxious sad mad nervous?

I'm 33 going on 34 weeks pregnant, I have placenta privea, and am waitin on my results for placenta accreta. I'm supposed to be on bedrest, but I'm taking care of two toddlers and have started my nesting phase hardcore. I feel so anxious about baby coming and I begin cleaning scrubbing and just doing stuff over and over, and it drives my husband absolutely nuts because I'm not supposed to do anything but can't help it. I'm confused because I'm not sure how to just drop it all and do nothing when I am so anxious to have baby here! I get sad because I start thinking about what if I lose this one or pass away myself? Then I get angry because for some reason I keep thinking my husband wouldn't care. Then I get nervous about surgery. I know its probably the hormones messing with my emotions but I'm a train wreck and idk what to do anymore. I feel like I have to constantly be cleaning and nothing can stop me.